UNABLE TO SPEAK MY TRUTH
As a practitioner supporting others in their health, wellbeing, and healing journeys, it is crucial that we also do our own internal work. Today, during my session within EP, I felt uncertainty manifesting in my neck and jaw—a sensation of being "unable to speak my truth." I found it peculiar at that moment because I am typically known for my outspoken nature and fearlessness in using my voice. I am passionate about education and sharing knowledge. Honesty is paramount to me, and I am willing to endure discomfort to shed light on what others fear addressing.
However, in this moment of vulnerability, I realised that despite my will, I feel trapped and unable to articulate my truth. Some circumstances and past traumas, which may not solely be my own, constrain me from expressing myself fully. This realisation deepens my understanding of the energy within us—the lowest being shame, the highest enlightenment, joy, and love. Many people struggle with speaking their truth, fearing shame because unspoken truths often carry a sense of shame, regardless of actual responsibility.
In a future post, I aim to explore the profound impact of shame on our emotional and physical well-being. But for now, I found solace in embracing discomfort. EP provides a safe space for self-reflection and acceptance—not necessarily change, but observation and allowance. Through my session, I realised that for me, speaking my truth isn't always necessary; sometimes, it's about sitting with it and accepting the silence.
Reflecting on my session, I recognised a pattern in myself: a compulsion to overshare, overeducate, and rush to reveal truths. Now, armed with more therapeutic tools, I understand the value of introspection and honouring experiences before sharing them. Today, I gained more self-awareness than I have in years, and I am grateful to my facilitator for guiding me through this journey.
As a Christian, this experience has been insightful and a spiritual calling for guidance. I anchored myself in God without shame, embracing self-compassion. I share these insights to illustrate how EP supports, nurtures, and transforms through personal experiences.
